For context I'm a 25f, who had a not so great childhood where I was sexually abused/raped. Over the years I've taught myself to accept penetration with no pain, and orgasm with toys. But with humans? It's a whole different matter.
For the first time ever I'm dating someone, he's lovely, he's aware of my childhood issues, but equally I don't feel massively comfortable explaining that I feel nothing during sex. I enjoy the person, I get wet (+++), but no sensation. It's odd. I count myself lucky that I enjoy the person bit (and he's definitely not bad to look at 😅). But I'm wondering if it's possible to teach myself to orgasm with partners? And if so, any ideas about how to go about it?
And yes, I've considered going to a sexologist, but can't exactly swing the 70€ consultation 😅