Wife and I have been together for 9 years (3 married) and we recently filed for a divorce. One week before mediation we decided to try again with counseling. I initiated the divorce because I was so tired of being threatened with separation every time a serious argument occurred. (Can find more details in previous posts). I was entertaining another woman at work 4 years ago and it severely damaged us. Long story short we were sending flirty messages and went to the gym once together. No contact but still I was an emotional cheater and I admit I was 100% wrong. I’ve been shit on ever since. My wife yells at me to wake me up in the morning example: “HEY GET UP! I need help with these kids! (after 4 hours of sleep bc I work nights, but when I go to the living room the kids are literally chilling or playing with each other), I am threatened with divorce weekly, then she starts to tell me she’s going to start fucking someone else until I divorce her. I’ve made mistakes in the past, but I don’t think I deserve to be treated this bad especially this long when she has admitted getting too close to a coworker as well around the same time. I have went to therapy, deleted social media, stopped hanging out with my friends so she didn’t think I was out with another female and she has my location. I got to work and come home. That’s been my routine since the incident. Is it possible to even recover from this? Again, I know it was shitty for me to do what I did but damn I’m trying to do everything I can to make it up and it seems like it’s never enough.
Disclaimer: threats for leaving was still an issue prior to marriage. I thought she’d stop if we got married but I was wrong. Dumb mistake I know