We’ve been through a lot in our two-year marriage- miscarriages, addictions, legal troubles. But we’ve stuck through it all. We are (or were?) really good together, but we used to be better communicators. Now we just sweep issues under the rug, give each other the cold shoulder and wait for them to eventually dissipate without directly addressing them.
I have this important event that has been giving me anxiety attacks for weeks- I did not open this panic attacks up with my husband because i felt like i was being an emotional burden. I’ve been dropping hints but I wasnt sure if he was just not picking them up or was intentionally ignoring, so i did not push it. Anyways, so i just learned today that he can’t accompany me to this event, and he knows his presence is the only thing that calms me down. His alibi was work, the one he skipped a week ago just to stay at home. I’ve been reminding him of this event for a week and he did not comment, but yeah my fault for assuming that he’d also skip this week since if he can skip for non-important days, why not choose an important day to skip knowing how much it would mean to me.
I don’t really blame him, i understand if he is needed to come in to work. I was just blindsided by the lack of clear communication. I guess i was just feeling sorry for myself since this also happened minutes after i learned that my friend will also be skipping my event because it’s their partner’s bday. How lucky of them to be made to feel special on their special day while I on the other hand, would rather choose to work on my bday so as not to get disappointed if nothing special happens on my special day.
Im sorry for the random ramblings, i just needed tp let this one out.