I've been married for 3 years and it hasn't been a smooth ride.. I proposed because I thought it was the right thing to do. I was getting old (34) at that time and it was getting depressing being single cuz. Do I love her kinda well not as much as I want to. I have issues so i will list them.
A. weight
She is 5'3 (160cm) weighing at 93kg. It's not healthy and definitely not sexy.
B. Hygiene
I have some serious issues with her not having proper hygiene. The sweaty smell is just something out of this world. While trying to get some sleep beside the fan would blow from her side towards me and its just awful. Another issue would be snoring. I can't sleep beside her because the snoring gets too loud and its almost impossible to sleep.
C. We tried having kids but so far it hasn't worked out. could it be her weight or could it be the stress out work? I'm working 80hrs a week which is killing me. we got into some financial BS and we have to clear our debt.
D. This is something I can't forget. I can't forget a specific person in the past. Long story short ( I met someone online while we were married and she blew my mind. I mean she was the perfect girl. But I was married so I had to stop. Never met her in person but we often communicated. yes my wife found out and she forgave me. That other person is still on my mind EVERY SINGLE DAY. I DREAM about her. I wish i could be with her but sadly because I'm married I can't. This is why I'm depressed. I'm 37 unhappily married and in financial troubles….
How I wish I could go back in time and just not do any of this. I don't want to hurt my wifes feelings but deep inside me I'm completely dead and I don't look forward to anything.