I’ve been contemplating everything.
My husband and I have been nonstop fighting for the last 2 years. It gets really heated at times. The part I absolutely hate is he will call my parents during the fight. I don’t have much friends and my parents are the closest people I have.
A few weeks I lost my scholarship for school. Therefore, I have been working pretty much every single day. I’m a full-time student, take care of our dog, and do all the cooking/cleaning in the house. I don’t pay rent but pay for groceries. I’ve asked my husband several times to do the laundry for the past 2 weeks. It was never done. However, he had the chance to hang out with 4 friends, game, and do whatever his heart desires for the past week. I get 3-5 hours of sleep max.
He asked me the other day if we could all hang out with his female friend. I objected because I’m busy. He’s been texting her pretty much every single day for 2 years… that’s another story. I finally lost it and went off on him. To add to the already complicated situation, we have been living with his hoarding narcissistic parents. My worst nightmare.
During our fight yesterday he began to record me. He typically records me whenever we fight and will use it as blackmail. He keeps threatening to send it to my family whenever he gets upset with me.
I called my parents because I told them I got really upset and said some really upsetting things. I told them he recorded me and was threatening to send it. My husband pushes me and provokes me. My parents were devastated because they see him as their own son. They called me this morning crying because they were worried.
My husband received devastating news the other day that he is really sick. Autoimmune disease. His health has been deteriorating and so has mine.
I already moved my stuff to another room. My parents are willing to help me find another place. I will miss my dog more than anything. I cry about it the most. I don’t know if therapy is worth it or just leaving is best. Additionally, I don’t have a lot of money. Therapy will be difficult for me to pay for at this moment.