So I’m (33f,lesbian) disabled due to end stage kidney failure. I go to dialysis 3 times a week and gosh it’s freaking exhausting. Not only is the three hour treatment doing what the body is supposed to naturally be doing in a 24-hour period but it also has terrible side effects (bone loss, Can cause heart problems, brittle nails, less hair growth, dry skin..) and of course the constant exhaustion that just never goes away. Remember, the Dialysis treatment literally cleans it everything from your blood (since it can’t tell what is good and what is bad) so this obviously leaves patients with deficiencies..
Anyways, I’ve been single since a week after I was released from the hospital after my diagnosis (ex said she just couldn’t deal with my situation) so I just focused on trying not to d*e.. well this year I decided to try to get back out there.. I’ve talked to about five women.. everything was going well, we would have great conversations and a good amount of things in common. Then I would let them know about the kidney failure and how my physical activist is very limited. Well three of them instantly blocked me, one of them asked a few questions and then blocked me the next day, and one kept talking to me and we became good friends but she made it clear she wasn’t interested anymore. Which is fine. We still talk and she checks in on me.
But it sucks that I don’t really have anyone to just be with, you know? I mean yea it’s hard to be with someone who is in my situation, but it’s harder for someone in my situation… you don’t knots what they’re going thru mentally, emotionally and physically.. anyways, I just wanna know if all ppl are like these women?