I had a gf with an extremely perverted mind. She would do a lot of stuff and share her fantasies with me, which were unusual for me, but I supported it all because it made her happy. Now, I'm spoiled by this, and I'm alone, craving for this stuff. I also feel extremely weird.
She made me love being submissive, controlling me, my body, and my mentality. She made me eat pussy hard, cumshot on my face, and then eat my own cum. She played with my butt, and she always shared her fantasies about making me have sex with guys, about how they would dominate me and fill my holes with dicks and cum.
Now, I'm alone, and I'm really craving for this stuff. I need to be dominated, pegged, want to eat pussy, and I want to fill myself as a slut. I'm only attracted to girls emotionally and physically, but now I also want dick. I want to taste it, suck it, fill it inside me, get covered by cum.
Wtf is going on with me? How should I calm or fulfill these needs? I'm feeling a mix of excitement and anxiety about this. I've tried talking to a few people, but I'm not sure where to go from here. Any advice on how to find partners who share these interests or how to cope with these feelings would be appreciated. Also, I want to make sure I'm safe and respected, so any tips on that would be great too.