I’ve got a question here. I (27f) have a bf (27) we have been on and off lately and we were on break for over a month lately during that time i began talking to a nice guy and i got used to it. He would always be available and we would do so many lovey dovey talks , on nights i was struggling to sleep i would talk to him and fall asleep in minutes. He became my melatonin literally. I don’t think i have feelings for him but he gives me what i look for in my partner (we just tried getting back together) but it is never emotionally satisfying with him. He isn’t available and we hardly talk for like ten minutes a day and we just exchange 10 boring texts asking what we ate good mornings and good nights. I had been feeling deprived of emotional affection for so long and that’s why we had been having fights also he was very toxic so i broke up but he came back and i still feel deprived while the other guys literally makes me so cozy And loved i fall asleep. I can’t help myself
Edit: a brief background me and my bf have been together for over three years. We are each other’s first serious relationship and it was so beautiful for first two years but it started going downhill when he began possessive controlling and toxic.
But part of me still loves him. I can’t leave him and he can’t leave me. We have tried cutting contact we just always come back. And yes i do love him, only if we was more affectionate and emotionally available i would feel so complete in this relationship (also less toxic)
The new guy isn’t from my country so even tho he is emotionally available and affectionate i know we probably might never even meet each other irl.