it might seem unfair, but i can’t help how i feel.. im really trying to not hold it over his head, because ive made mistakes and have regrets too. (he told me he regrets it) he has had over 20 sex partners (all women), we are getting ready to move in together and i was cleaning out his room at his dads house (he is in the military and wont be here to pack his things)
and i’ve accidentally found pornos that him and his ex filmed, photos of him touching his ex’s privates, his ex’s underwear (more than once) and today i was cleaning out his closet and found old polaroids of him with another girl naked doing… things…. one time we went on a week break when we were dating and in the span of a week he had sex with another girl. it really just hurts and whenever i think about it i just don’t even want him to touch me… he is a great husband he really is, and he has changed so much as a person since joining the military. i just don’t know how to get over the feelings that im having?? he didn’t remember that he had any of this stuff still. i just don’t know how to get over this since i can’t erase what i just saw from my memory? and also seeing this kind of stuff doesn’t make me feel really great about myself either. hopefully someone can understand how i’m feeling lol