Im a 16yr F and I've been getting more horny than usual. Im not 18 yet so idk if i can post here but i need help. I know teens are usually kinda horny but its becoming CONSTANT for me.
Probably tmi but the way i usually pleasure myself is by going into this weird sideways position and squeezing my legs together while thinking about something that turns me on until I kinda climax?? Not even sure if im even having an orgasm but afterwards I feel pretty wet and its like my vagina is pulsating?. Ive been doing this since i was less than 10 years old. Maybe 7 but im not sure, all i remember is that sadly one of my earliest memories is doing it in my old house that i moved out of years and years ago.
So I've been doing that for about/more than half the time I've been alive but Im noticing im doing it more and more. Today I think I did it like 5 times. I dont think I spent more than 10 mins today not thinking about sex. Im always putting my hand down there and touching myself even if it feels like nothing/not good. I tried exploring myself more with my hands and I finally found out where the dang clit is but every time I try masturbating that way I can't really do it because my fingers get tired or it feels overwhelming. TBH Im getting pretty frustrated that I can't get a satisfying orgasm or that I cant have actual sex or get a vibrator yet.
I've also had weird fantasies and read smut before and have a bit of a porn addiction, but I can't help it. I dont think this is a normal amount of teen horniness but I wouldn't know because I dont talk to any of my friends about horny stuff (does anyone??). All of these sexual thoughts I have are kinda taking over my day to day ESPECIALLY AT NIGHT.
I have a therapist and my parents are awesome but I'd rather off myself than tell any of them about these problems I have. Can anyone tell me what is wrong with me? I feel very dirty and ashamed about this!! Im pretty scared to post this so pls be nice lol