Hi, I'm a 18F and I feel like ever since I graduated from highschool, my friends stopped hanging out with me, today I just saw that they went out in like a group of 8 of my friends because they were sharing photos on a group chat I was still in, and they've done this multiple times, they didn't even asked me, nor reached out in the following months after graduating, I understand that I've been a little quiet and distant myself, since I suffer from depression and I get very heavy depressive episodes where I even go days without eating or drinking anything, but I feel like I've always been there for them, all of them when they needed my help.
I helped one of them when her bf cheated on her, I helped another friend when she felt like she was being left behind because she's didn't know if she wanted to study at a university or just work bc I had the same problem, I helped another girl bc she had problems w another friend of hers, and I always do it out of empathy, bc I know how it feels to have no one to rely on and bc they're my friends.
I always try to fo my best to be a good friend, a good person, but idk, maybe I did something wrong to the point that almost non of them even wished me a happy 18th birthday
I feel like I know so much about everyone, bc I like talking to ppl and helping them, but no-one knows anything about me.
I noticed how even back in highschool when I had problems controlling my emotions, bc again, depression, I used to cry in middle of class and just pretend I was sleeping, but they never bothered to ask how I was, to reach out first without needing something from me
What should I do? Should I confront them?