Honestly, most people in my life dont like me and the majority of friends I've had I've had to cut off because they pushed my out and disrespected me or they slowly pulled back and I dont hear from them again
I have one friend now that I talk to about three times a month and I can tell i bore him. I've also talked with him about my social struggles with friendship and I cant help but feel hurt that he doesn't try to introduce me to his online friend group. I definitely think I'm the problem as In the common denominator but at the same time I wonder if it's just my neurodivergence that pushes people away
I'm so lonely but at the same time I have so much trauma that the idea of making friends is incredibly unappealing to me now
I just want to be able to have fun and get along with people. Think my isolation has made me a bore and in a lot of ways I just dont have the energy to be funny and joke around constantly. Having more reserved or intimate convo is definitely more in my wheelhouse but it rubs people the wrong way
Any advise for how to be more entertaining and fun to be around to where people will actually want to be around me instead of put up with me?