I miss being awkward about a crush and having someone be awkward about me in return
Awkwardly finding excuses to talk to each other, not realizing how obvious it was at the time one or both of us wanted something more
Watching something slowly build over time
I think I'm going to stick with that. Aim for only friends first, and see what happens. It's so much more satisfying even if it takes a while. Ive decided that's what I want. The "bluntly being asked out by someone / or me trying to blurry ask our someone" approach obviously wasn't working.
I can do it.