It’s both our first relationship, she’s amazing on paper—kind, caring, loving and she loves me dearly. But I just feel down down that she’s not my future wife. She found me at a lonely time in my life where I longed to feel loved, and now I feel it was selfish of me to continue into a relationship despite being hesitant about her. I’ve been torn between two regrets— leave and regret leaving someone good or stay and feel like I missed out on experiences and finding someone “more right” for me. It’s a heavy situation and weighs me down everyday. She doesn’t deserve heartbreak but I feel stuck.
I will mention that there are other issues such as it being LDR, I want to travel a lot after college, she wants to work, and a big thing for me was that we don’t have a shared sense of humour/laugh much together— which is a quality that I enjoy the most with people— I feel I’m just being superficial and looking for excuses or reasons to leave though.
TL;DR: my partner is amazing on paper but deep down I feel she isn’t the one for me and I feel I need to choose either the regret of staying or the regret of leaving. What should I do?