I’ve been seeing a guy for the last month. He’s older than me. I made it clear from the offset that I didn’t have time for a relationship and just wanted something casual etc. He agreed to it but did tell me that he would be interested in something more.
But now, things have changed, I’m so attracted to him. I think about him all the time. I’m finding ways to spend time with him. We have incredible, intense sex but lately it’s become something more. When he touches my body, even if not sexually, I have goosebumps. I can’t get enough of him. I know it sounds cringe but after we have sex, I feel dizzy and high. I don’t remember ever feeling like this before.
I love sharing our life stories with each other, I feel like I just want to know everything about him. I enjoy even the mundane moments. Yesterday we were eating sandwiches and playing cards. When I go to his house, he gets my favourite drink and snacks in and he remembers every detail about me.
I think in the past I’ve naturally been in toxic relationships and enjoyed the drama. So this is very new for me. Now I’m a mum, it’s the last thing I want. It’s just nice to actually want a normal, loving relationship. I just hope this continues and isn’t just a phase.