So me (24M) and my GF (24F) of 6 years have just agreed to go on a break. For additional context we live together and have lived together for 5 years.
It came about because I’ve been having serious doubts in the past year about taking the next step and spending the rest of my life with her. Talking to her about anything, even about how our days have been has felt like a chore and I generally have not been happy. I feel mentally exhausted every day when spending time with her and automatically feel so much more energetic and happier spending time with friends or family, whether it is over the phone, online, or in person. This is something she has also noticed and commented on, which I feel very guilty for.
I avoid confrontation a lot, but a few days ago she kept insisting on having a serious conversation about our relationship and whether I want to still be with her (which is completely fair). We had a similar conversation about 1-2 months ago which ended in me avoiding a breakup because I was too scared to say it and just chose to deal with how I’ve been feeling and try to be more pleasant to be around. Anyway, the current conversation led to me finally saying I think it will be best for both of us if we broke up. It was super emotional for both of us and in the end she suggested a break to think about it. She has been staying with a friend of hers and we plan to reconvene tomorrow (break planned to last 3 days) to chat again. During this break we have kept in touch briefly just with good mornings and goodnights.
Basically, I don’t know what to do in the conversation tomorrow. Do I move forward with the breakup?. I feel less mentally exhausted being alone and not having to deal with interacting with her. I just feel scared about throwing away a 6 year relationship and regretting it.
TLDR: My GF and I are on a break as suggested by her following me suggesting a breakup. Don’t know if I should follow through with the break up because I’m worried I might regret it.