35F. Doing well career wise. Have a good bunch of friends and people who love me.
Got out of a 4 year old relationship 4 years ago – that was filled with love but the guy wasn’t ready to commit in any way including living together, which I really wanted to have with him. I called it off but it took me a good 2 years to fully get over it emotionally.
Fast forward to now. I’ve dated a few folks for short periods of time, but nothing that has materialised into a long term partnership. I’ve done a lot of work on myself and been very intentional with dating.
All friends married, some with kids – so sharing or processing this with them just doesn’t work i feel because most of them don’t get it?
I feel like I’d really like a (good) partnership. And crave that intimacy at times.
At the same time I’m struggling with the idea of what if it never happens for me again? Do I/does my life still has the same value? I know how that sounds but I do feel a sense of it’s too late possibly?
Feeling a bit dejected and sad about the whole thing. :/ 🙁
Also, exhausted – like I feel like I’m doing what I can, and it’s too much tight now to just figure out what if anything at all I should be doing differently.
TLDR: 35F, have lived and loved. Single for the last 4 years. Thinking if it’s too late. Pensive and existential thoughts.