I don’t want to go too into detail about this because It’s seriously been plaguing my brain for a few months now and it is a bit embarrassing.
Back in March, my girlfriend made a comment about the size of my genitalia. I heard her say that a sex toy she used to have was not only bigger than me, but felt better.
She tried to explain how she misspoke, and that she didn’t mean it, but I can’t understand why she would say something like that if it was not even the least bit true. She couldn’t come up with a reason for saying what she did either.
I have been depressed, thinking that she has never been pleasured by me, even though she says she has. I think she broke my confidence. I don’t see how this could be solved.
I do love her, but I feel myself growing to hate her, and I didn’t want to be with her after what she said. I would love nothing more than to be with her again, but every time I look at her I feel resentment and betrayal.
She doesn’t seem to understand the significance of how badly she hurt me either, and I have no way of conveying the feeling to her. I’m lost and this is all I think about every second of the day.
Is there any way that I can forgive her? I really want to. I just don’t see anything out there that she could do to make matters better.
Edit: I don’t care that she says that I’ve made her feel good, It’s the fact that she said what she said and now I feel extremely insecure, and I want to fix my self image but I have no idea how. I don’t care about anything she thinks about me, I feel horrible about my size.