I've been seeing a guy for about few months.
Felt the greatest chemistry, we like each other.
And guess what, we both are leaving where we are pretty soon – I wasn't mentally ready enough to keep this going as a LDR since the base of mental / emotional connection was still lacking with not enough time given to us.
And I was afraid of my feeling grows up, if me and him continue seeing each other without the actual commitment. I assume that we both were kinda intentionally ignoring the reality since the chemistry was too good to be true.
But it was time to step further: had a deep convo, and we decided to stay as friends.
We both know we were real for this, but unfortunately, we were also looking forward to the completely different directions of future.
I constantly bring up thousands of "what if"s in my mind, but I do know that I did my best.
I thought I was ready for this conclusion coming to the end, but my tears aren't stopping.
There's no one to blame, and it's no one's fault. And I know myself that this was the right decision which I was foreseeing already.
It sucks, it really sucks.