Hey guys. Kind of in a weird situation here.
My girlfriend (31f) and I (32m) have been together for about 1.5 years. Unfortunately, the relationship isn't working for me. I feel like I'm putting in more time and effort than I'm getting out of it. My needs and wants aren't being met and I often feel used by her. It also feels like she's hiding me from her friends and family. And my girlfriend has a weird relationship with her ex, which is making me feel more and more uncomfortable. The whole thing feels so twisted and I honestly want out of this.
Anyway, I tried to break things off with her yesterday. We talked for about an hour or so. She didn't want to end things, saying she would do better. But she ultimately mentioned that she was feeling suicidal and thinking about suicide. Heavy topic, I know. We talked some more, about how she has a big support network to talk to and that things will ultimately get better. We even talked about her going back to therapy. We ended up not breaking up after our talk. However, I feel like her comments on suicide or feeling suicidal were used to sort of hold me hostage. Suicide is a very serious topic and I'm not just brushing it off. But after I told her that I wasn't leaving, her mood flipped. Like it was some performative act, like she was looking for pity. And this isn't the frst time she's mentioned suicide. She brought it up back in November after we got into a big argument. Idk. It sort of feels like she's using this as an excuse to keep me from leaving, like she's afraid to be alone?
tldr: I tired to break up with my girlfriend and she brought up suicide and i don't know what to do.