I once had something I consider my ultimate life goal right there in front of me. It was within reach just by one step, easily. But I didn’t. I let it slip. And now, I live with the crushing weight of that regret which getting more and more everyday passing.
What makes it worse is that the same goal is still technically possible—but the path to it now feels nearly impossible. What once would’ve taken minimal effort now demands everything I have and taking years, 24/7 dedication, and even then, there’s no guarantee I’ll ever get it. Before, it was certain. Now, it’s a gamble.
And here’s the proble. logically, I know that if I don’t try now, I’ll regret this moment too—regret not trying when I still had a shot, no matter how small. But every time I get up and gather all my energy to start, I get paralyzed by remembering how close I was and how easily I could’ve had it. Also what if still fail. That thought drains me, depresses me, and makes me want to give up before even trying. I can’t block it out. I can’t distract myself. Because the path to trying now goes straight through that regret. There’s no way around it.
I just needed to write this out. Maybe someone out there feels the same. Maybe this helps me get unstuck. But thanks for reading anyway.