me (20F) and my boyfriend (20M) have been dating for 3 months so far so we’re fairly new to this.
we knew each other in high school but never perused anything because of friends and petty conflicts with other people but now we’re together and nothing could be better!! right, well his job requires him to move out of state and on the 8th of august he gets his first interview that’ll really seal the deal if he’s leaving or not and i feel like i’m lowkey loosing it…
searching for answers everywhere i go and now i’ve taken it to here in hopes completely strangers can lighten my load a little bit.
it just sucks when i really think deep about us and a part of me still feels like he acts a little childish especially when it comes to the more serious stuff…but i feel like we’re so well connected and so many little things have brought us together like the red string theory people always harp about..i’m just so emotionally numb???invested?? I’m afraid i want to break up with him because it’s getting too hard for me that he’s leaving…even though he’s given me nothing but hope and reassurance that he’d never cheat and that he wants a life me, wants to live together wherever he goes…and that’s when my father comes into play where he doesn’t want me to leave..feels like i’m disrespecting him and uprooting the family because id be leaving a family business my little sister and mainly my parents behind…not to mention i feel so behind in life i don’t know if i could ever get where my boyfriend is, i barley have anything in my savings..i live off the little money i get here and there plus a car payment that keeps me at bay and my family supporting everything else..i feel like a loser i wish i had a job like his where it pays good money and i wouldn’t have to stress so much…right now it this moment it just all feels so impossible but i mean he’s a boy i’ve wanted since forever and now i finally have him and it feels like it’s all crumbling down even though i knew this from the start that he’d might be leaving which i guess is my naivety but i really don’t care. i do really badly want things to work and i know im scared so i self sabotage and think the worst like im doing now by saying, “should i stay with him?” or “he’s being too childish” i just fear he’s abandoning me and that i’ll be alone again.
idk what to do, advice?? :/
TL;DR – how do i go about a fairly new healthy relationship that may be turning into a long distance with a head full of doubt?