Basically my ex best friend and I (both in our late 20s) previously dated and realized that we were better off as friends and didn’t want anything to get in the way of our friendship so we went back to being friend.
Everything was great, we still got a long really well never had an arguments or anything we were the best of friends until he got into a relationship and told me he couldn’t hang out, but I’m still one of his really good friends and I could reach out if I ever needed anything. This was last November. Before he told me the truth he kept lying about being sick/busy.
Ever since then I’ve send funny tik toks, asking how he was, I tried my best to reassure him that I wasn’t angry and I’ll always be there. All I ever got was an “I’m cool hope all is well” or “lmao” at the tik toks. We randomly saw each other back in March and talked for an hour long, I thought everything was good with us until a week later I sent a few texts and realized he was still upset and ignoring me.
Ever since then I stopped (we’ve been in no contact for about 6 months). This time made me realize him not reaching out, that there is something more to the situation than him just being in a relationship because we were such good friends he would never cut me off like I was a piece of shit he entertained while he was single and act like he hated me the minute he got into a relationship.
This is the text I wanna send
“I know you’re still upset and I keep trying to figure what really happened over these past few months so I wanted to apologize again just incase it’s all my fault because it feels like it is. I am really sorry and hope we can at least sort everything out and clear things up for both of us. Tbh it’s been so hurtful when one of your best friends starts to act you’re their biggest enemy. After this I learned my lesson I promise I never going to take my close friends for granted again because I’ve been so sad ever since
Idk if you’re ever going to forgive me but it’s been a while so I hoping this apology will at least make things better, and if there’s anything I can do to help make things better lmk. Up to now it’s something that’s literally always on my mind and I feel so bad I just wanted to say I’m really sorry”
Should I send it or just try calling and having a conversation?
TLDR my ex best friend ghosted me for a girl and I want to try to talk to him