Just some backstory. Sex life is on life support. Wife has it on a schedule in which she can initiate but if I do I am declined 99% of time. She also said she make sure she keeps her schedule so I don’t cheat. I have never cheated and that statement feels like she’s literally having sex with me so she won’t get hurt. Anyways, there’s been more more comments I have been hurtful to hear, but I don’t wanna list everything.
Something happened the other night that made me think there’s no hope.
I brought up that if we redo our bathroom one day, I would love to get a big bathtub. I mentioned playfully that we could take a bath together, and I was immediately met with eww. She thinks baths are disgusting. I then said Nevermind because I don’t want to force you to something that you think is gross. That would make me feel awful. She backtracked and said I would do it for you I do other things that are gross for you. That was a punch to the gut because our sex life is really basic. It’s either doggy, missionary, me giving her oral and me using a vibrator on her. That’s 4 things…4. Soo if one or two things she feels are gross that’s does because she loves me it’s gotta be the sex right? And anyway, I pressed her and she tried to change the subject, and I brought it up again like five minutes later because again I don’t want her doing something that she finds gross and she said not to worry about it. I replied if the shoes was on the other foot, you would wanna know, and she just tried to change the subject. I’m completely fucked right? Like I see no way that comment doesn’t signal our bedroom is done