As the title states, I am turning 30 this year, in about 4 months, as a virgin. I am a man, I am about 180cm tall, decent build. Face, I'd say maybe a 6. I am very confident in myself around others, I have no hangups with talking to women, I don't even get nervous, at least not since I turned 23 or so. I have a few close friends, many general friends, many of whom are women. I like to think I'm well adjusted. And as the title states, I have been rejected by every woman I've ever confessed feelings to, asked out, approached in public, messaged on an app, everything. Every one.
12 women were people I had known for at least 4 months, but a few were years, and had developed friendships with and spent lots of time with, a couple have remained long time friends to this day.
178 were randoms, women I met in public, at bars, at concerts, at gatherings of many kinds, plublic events, etc. Maybe 20 of those 178 were on apps. Most rejections were just straight up "sorry, no thank you" shut downs, many were some form of "aww, you're sweet but I have a boyfriend" or softer things like that.
My friends see me as an anomaly of sorts, lol. They really don't understand it either, they tease me and say I'm like a can of soup that keeps getting pushed to the back of the shelf at the store. (lol) They try to set me up with some of their other friends every now and then and it never pans out. After 15 years of not having any success with women, my more long time friends have ultimately given up on trying to help me and never bring it up anymore, like they have also kind of just accepted that it is what it is.
Anyway, sorry for the long post, but I'd like to know if there are any others who find my words relatable,
and ideally if anyone can give me some advice or words of wisdom as to how I can change this. How I can accomplish at least getting my first date. Since I was a boy, my dream in life was to be a husband and a father, and to live a good simple life like that. It seems to me now that this may simply be a pipe dream.
Thanks for anyone who responds.
EDIT: I should clarify, these attempts and rejections have been over my life, not like in a year's time or something, but over 15 years of attempting since I was a teenager.
ALSO, I am not trying to just have sex or something, that is secondary, the main goal is finding a relationship, love and all of that. Also I'm not just approaching random women and asking them to be my girlfriend, I'm striking up conversation like a normal person (I think that's what everyone else does lol)
Sorry, if I wasn't clear