I took mushrooms the other night to test some out before my bf and i go to a festival. I planned on listening to my favorite records, painting, and only getting on technology to watch nature docs or for music. I was laying and staring at our popcorn ceiling when my mind just started going off.
He doesn’t cheat or treat me badly in any ways, he’s never raised his voice at me, and we’ve never even really fought (i’ve gotten mad at him once and that’s it) – we’ve been together a year and a half. But he’s only asked me on one date when we first got together, no more after. He did absolutely nothing for my birthday (besides food), and for valentine’s day he not only did nothing sweet for the holiday but didn’t even do the dishes and clean up like he said he would.
He’s so sweet and gentle with me but when we have seggs, it’s really either jackhammer or nothing. I tried to go slow and make love gently and his face showed literally no interest. It’s like passion isn’t even a thing anymore. It never bothered me so much until now.
I feel like part of me is being ungrateful and stuck in a bad trip mindset bc he does still do things. when my oil needs changed, he does it. when i forget something and im at work, he’ll bring it if he’s off. he took me to work and picked me up for 6 months until i could get my car and he gets off 1.5-2 hrs before me, so he’d just sleep in the car and wait. His grandparents sold him their house so he hopped on that to help support us. He’s a goofball and so funny. But also doesn’t know how to support me when i’m sad/mad (just goes quiet).
What’s the best way to go about this conversation? I don’t want to hurt him or sound ungrateful or nitpicking. He truly is a wonderful man and i love him dearly. So much changed after that trip.. does anyone have a similar experience? If so, how did you go about it? Thank you 🫶🏼