I’m 30 and I’ve spent years trying to improve myself: gym, better style, skincare, therapy, travel, reading, working on emotional intelligence and how I relate to people. Not that this should guarantee anything, I am just saying that I think I am meeting the base line.
Still, dating keeps ending the same way: initial interest, then distance, rejection, or being quietly dropped.
Recently I had two situations back-to-back that reinforced that feeling. One girl lost interest after over a month, and it hurt. Now I was dating another one, and she seemed interested enough for two dates but pulled away when I tried to kiss her the other day, and now I’m pretty sure she’s fading too as we didn't text since that day (I didn't think about it because my grandpa passed away that same night, so these has been busy days for me). So I guess for Occam's razor, she is not interested.
At the same time, I watch people around me (even a friend who gets wasted a lot, he even lost his drive license and his car) effortlessly get attention and sex. Others are just good looking. They are situationships, which looks like something people want to avoid.. but it's something at least, and the more people you date, the more chance you have to find that one person with who you would like to spend time together, I think..
I know comparison is useless, and I’m not blaming anyone or expecting anyone to like me. But I feel like wrong, forgetable, replaceable; and I don't have this luck with women (I tried to date multiple ones to reach better results.. but I never even accomplished to have 2 links in the same time). I am really thinking about doing something drastic and go for aestetic surgery in order to improve my looks. People seem to accept better your personality if you are better looking.. I mean, in the end i am not a monster personality-wise..