I'm bisexual, I've dated men and women, I land people continuously out of my league physically. Yet, over the months, it always breaks down because I lack empathy. And apparently you can't develop empathy. When I was younger, looks and confidence carried me. As I get older, its becomin more and more problematic. I'm not an asshole, I just can't feel your pain. That's so absurd to me, how do I not die alone? I cannot figure people out. They're like abstract beings. I'm academic, and well achieved in every aspect, but the one puzzle I've never been able to figure out is human emotion & its getting tiring.
The older I get, the more problematic this becomes. Every break up – 'You don't care about me', 'You have no feelings', ' I need someone that will put me first'….what is the goal here? How do I figure out how to have a relationship where I find their needs an inconvenience that is secondary to my needs?
I put 6 days a week in the gym, my body and face look great. BUT, getting people isn't my problem, keeping them is. And the insanely frustrating thing, is that I cannot figure out what should be a simple logical puzzle, but feelings are not logical or measurable!