I feel limp, heavy, disheveled, overweight and like I’m dragging my feet. since the beginning of 2025 it’s been one stressor after another, or at least just a lot of difficult unwanted circumstances and I’m beyond burntout. Not to mention I’m struggling to keep my head above water in my job which has been noticed.
In my early 20s people thought I was good-looking, now not so much the case. It’s lil everything back then was optimised to be the most entertaining, cool, interesting version of myself. As I’ve gotten older, I can barely have energy for the bare minimum. Thanks to therapy, I no longer hate myself day to day, I accept myself and go about my life.
But deep down I’m unhappy. I don’t feel desirable or interesting. I haven’t dated for years and while I have a lot going for me, I feel like I’m living a provisional life, not my actual life. I often feel disconnected to things, people. I don’t care about career or working towards something at all really. With lack of energy and ambition, I kinda can’t really get excited for the present or the future – it leaves me feeling trapped. While I like stability, I can’t get excited at the typical work 5 days a week, do allocated sports/hobby one night, socialise and repeat forever.
While early 30s isnt old, I definitely feel it and I’m following that trajectory. I’m considering a working holiday visa trip to Canada to experience something new and explore while I’m single and still able, but not fully sure yet. How have you broken out of a rut?