I F(17) and my boyfriend M(18) have been dating for a year and a half now. I am about to graduate high school, I have been hearing rumors about my ex boyfriend still liking me and regretting how he treated me in our relationship. For reference we dated for a year, was my first serious relationship, and i lost my virginity to him. We had a rough relationship and he would often look at/talk to other girls (never fully cheated), he also had few instances where he would get too aggressive with me – he would put me in strong choke holds while we would play fight and wouldn’t stop until I “tapped out” even if I said “Please stop I can’t breath” -, but ever since I heard he still talks about me and cries whenever he does I have really wanted to talk to him once last time and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about him in a s3xual way. Then today I had my senior class trip and this guy I have never talked to before was looking at me on the bus and every one said he was “flirting” with me a lot – which I didn’t notice, but again I can’t stop thinking of him in a s3xual way.
I have never been like this before and I used to never feel this way about other guys until now. I also have been feeling more and more uninterested in my current boyfriend. I have talked to my mom about it and she keeps just telling me to stop and that I’ll never find a guy as good as my current boyfriend, which obviously isn’t good advice. All my friends tell me I’m young and that if I’m feeling this way I should probably break up and meet other people. I don’t think I’m a s3xual person but I feel like I’m so tired of my current boyfriend that I’m just looking for anything. He is the best boyfriend I’ve ever had I just don’t feel a strong connection anymore, but I also feel like I may just be going through a phase right now especially because I’m at a weird time in my life.