I 35F have been dating a guy long distance 35M for the last 4 months. One month into dating we went on a vacation together. It was our first date. From the first instance, we really seemed to be into each other. Holding hands, cuddles, hugs and even a passionate kiss to end the night. The 3-4 days we stayed together, he affirmed me a lot that he likes me a lot, and it felt a little like love bombing, so i tried to keep my guard up until i had tested some consistency over time. After we finished the vacation, all the vibes were still there, calls every now and then, sweet romantic msgs! Etc. He jokingly called himself my boyfriend too, which i didn’t oppose to. And played along. But he never really said the magical words. After a month, the texts started slowing down and the calls became a scheduled activity and not candid. It was mostly to catch up what happened during the week. He kept suggesting that he wanted to come, but never made plans or looked at flights. I offered to go see him, and he said he wanted to come see me first. I waited and it never happened. I opened upto him saying that i am worried the connection will fizzle out if we don’t meet and keep in constant touch. He then agreed to me flying to him. And this time, there were no fireworks. It was more calm. No hand holding, no going gaga with compliments. He spoilt me the first time by setting the bar too high. Now it felt different. We would still cuddle at night. And makeout anytime, but things felt distant. I expected him to make plans to come see me right afterwards, but that didn’t happen and nor did he talk about his feelings or where he sees it going. I am too much in my head since i have been back. We still haven’t talked since i have been back. I said i’d call him in a couple days, but i haven’t yet and neither had he. I really like him and want to be exclusively in a relationship with him. Apps drain the life out of me. P.s he had a perfect moment to introduce me to friends and he didnt. Wondering if i am building castles over nothing.