I am 23F in school college. I wasn't allowed to make friends to go out or sleepover terms I learnt now ,, till now I think damage has done. My personality is zero now , even though I get the chance to go out with someone I behave awkward , weird and uncomfortable… that is non intended, btw
No partner stays with me , no friends at all , I am female and I do not have any other girl friend , I miss female friend's but it's so hard and due to not being cool I am looser too , i grew up without phone , physically abused alot , suppressed personality, fear on eyes and face dead, anyone who see me tells me why I am sad , I should be open up? I don't want to live anymore at all , I will never marry because I surely know my partner will cheat on me ,
I don't know what to improve to get at least a group of friends . 🙏 at least someone I have to rely on , someone to share my life with , I am so uncool