I love my family. I really truly do. I’m a dad of two, a 2.5 yr old girl who is the light of my life and a 5 month old boy.
I’m the sole earner in my house which is a blessing but I work 60-70 hours/wk to do that. I’m up at 2:30-3am to drive 45 minutes to work. An hour home between 4-5pm. I take one weekend off every 3 weeks. I’m always so excited to see the family, we do dinner, play, talk, etc.
My wife is amazing. She really carries the house and takes care of the kids but I’m just so tired at night. I start bath time at 7pm, do stories and put the kid to bed by 8 but then it’s just a constant battle to get her to fall asleep. I’m lucky if I get to bed by 9:30. Normally I sleep 10-2:30 and some days I just can’t handle it and it really weighs on my presence and mood.
I feel so guilty about the idea of asking my wife to do even more and deal with a toddler AND a newborn so I can go to bed but I also don’t know how much longer I can go like this.