We met a year ago and a half ago, have been dating seriously for 5 months.
I want to have sex because it makes me feel close and connected to my partner. We basically live together; he stays over most nights. But he never initiates sex. When I try he denies me and I quietly cry so I don’t wake him up.
When I ask he just laughs and then cuddles me, dismissing my ask.
It’s really making me feel unattractive and like he doesn’t see me as a woman. Like maybe it’s because I have small boobs or maybe it’s because I’m 37 and not in my 20’s anymore when I was attractive.
What are the signs that a guy is just with you to be with you and not because he finds you sexually attractive.
He had his test checked a month ago, it was 480 which is high for a guy his age.
Also, sex helps me sleep, like having an orgasm to relax before bed. And when he stays I don’t feel okay with playing with myself next to him even though he said he didn’t care if I did.
TLDR: Boyfriend rarely initiates and denies me sex, his test is above average for his age, it’s wearing on my self esteem and I wanted to know if this means if he is not sexually attracted to me.