Ok so I might get a lot of hate for this but I really need advice the beginning of our relationship my fiancé was an addict I didn’t know until after we got together I went to his court cases I worked at a rehab so I kinda knew what I was dealing with we moved to a different state 9 hours away for his job he’s still going through recovery he cheats on me I decide to stay he really seemed like he regretted it and there hasn’t been any problems since but I still get the urge to go through his phone it’s like my mind won’t shut up until I do even though I never find anything and I really don’t want to do it but he goes out of town almost every week for work so it would be very easy to do it again I love this man with everything that I have we don’t argue it’s been so healthy after the situation (besides me going through his phone)so why can’t I stop going through his phone he never has a problem with it but I don’t want to be that kind of wife when the time comes please don’t be to harsh but I would love to hear if any of you guys have dealt with something similar and how you got over it
The situation happened when we were a year and some change in it’s now been 4 years
I half blame his foreman he would go out of town with he’s the one that egged him on because he does the same thing to his wife even while she was pregnant but luckily he’s a foreman now so they don’t go out of town together that often he was also drinking a lot around the time he cheated cause he couldn’t smoke weed and he’s been sober from what he was on for 4 years