In high school, I was a late bloomer, and I feel that I was more social in the beginning of freshman year, but I said a few things that were a little cringey, and I feel like that stopped me from really speaking out. The good thing is that that version of me is completely unrecognizable because I had long hair and a mask on. I’ve spent the rest of high school just trying to fit in by looking normal, and honestly, I think it worked, but I just constantly have the fear of being judged for just speaking, and whenever I have conversations with people, I just get really nervous about what I’m going to say. And I just want to get better at talking to people and getting more friends in college because realizing now I only have like one really close friend and a few others that I’m not that close with. I just want to be able to talk to people and have more friends, but I just don’t know how to get over the nervousness that I feel in my chest when talking to people I don’t know that well. I know college is supposed to be easier, but I’m also just not an initiator