Last week i (F21)reported my now ex bf (M23) for dv. It was bad enough that when I reported it the cop could see the red imprints of his fingers on my arm, but it didn’t bruise. He ended up getting arrested for it. Everyday since it happened I have either felt guilty for reporting, or I have missed him, or been scared of potentially seeing him even though I knew he was in jail. I know what he did was really bad but I think I might be crazy cause I don’t see it as that bad since there weren’t bruises but it was also the first time he got physical but then again we were dating for less than a month. Basically I want to know why im having such confusing feelings and if it will ever stop because I don’t know if I can handle these feelings especially if it’s me wanting to see him again. Idk if it needs context or not but I’m also autistic and have a hard time truly connecting with people.