Tl;dr- gf of 9months is not respecting the boundaries i had set and not im feeling like an insecure fool.
Few days ago my current gf told me about this previous hook up she had before our relationship and apparently she has still been on/off talking to that guy. She mentioned that she created boundaries with him and told him that we are dating. Then proceeded to further saying ill block him and stuff but never did that even though she says she has blocked him.
She hides things from me like when a guy is over her house( she lives with 2 of her friends) even yesterday she went out to study but couldn’t mention who she went out with. She has too many guy friends and when she tells me about certain things she has done previously just triggers the insecurities in me. I just don’t know what to do i feel stuck with the communicating and making boundaries. Feels more like begging at this point talking to her about the same issues i have since day 1. I have told her from the starting i dont have an issue in having guy friends i do trust her, its the type of guys she meets and hangout with are not fine. I feel like if i bluntly tell her it will just make me the insecure fool who just does not trust her. The efforts she puts in even after 9months of dating makes me feel like shit.