It’s
So simple to be transparent …
When you’re also unsure how to approach humans raw
navigating thru a different environmental timeline completely
different univers
shifting of reality altogether
Idk I wish I could exist where I don’t feel like I’m being treated less than or looked at as terrible or a burden for existance where I’d rather be anywhere besides that placement with myself and others I care about when I want to give up the care of all of it cuz it can be over so easy
my worth is known to myself
I no longer try to prove myself to anyone but I never want to be disappointed or the target cuz once I switch it’s because it’s been pressed too far and nobody safe from the consequences I’m really not an alignment with being a dark horrendous, evil malicious nightmare of a human that I know I could be that I’m doubted so often by others, as if my kindness is supposed to be taken for an easy target, but I didn’t grow up here I never grew up anywhere longer than a few years or less. I know that has given me the option to be nothing more than grateful for relationships I’ve built and can hold onto before. Life is cut too short, but it also makes me feel as if nobody will ever be close to me long enough to get to know me past the first layer and that’s OK. I just hope it’s a good one.
I think there’s moments I just miss the different being I was so many of them different lives I know I’m not where I’m known to be and it’s not cuz I’m lost I’m just physically grieving and more sensitive
It become lonely
Lonely becomes lost
I was on my way and humbled
I can’t stand how heartless many others are
And I feel often like a burden not being the provider I’m
Used to being
It will shift
I know
Vent over