I don’t know if this is the right place to post this but I think I’m the reason I can’t get over my ex
I’m 19 and my ex is 30, and I don’t know if that makes a difference but sometimes I feel like it does. Like they’ve probably moved on way easier than I have, and I’m just stuck here overthinking everything.
It’s been a while since we broke up, and I’ll be okay for a few days, sometimes even a week, and then I end up checking their socials again. I don’t even know what I’m expecting to see, but every time I do it just resets everything. If they look happy or like they’re doing fine, it weirdly makes it worse.
I think part of it is that I don’t really have closure, so checking feels like the only way I still feel connected to them somehow. But at the same time, I know I’m just hurting myself over and over again.
I’ve tried telling myself to stop, deleting apps for a bit, distracting myself, but I always end up going back and looking again. It’s like a habit at this point.
Has anyone else dealt with this? How do you actually break that cycle instead of just telling yourself to stop and then not being able to?
TL;DR: I keep checking my ex’s socials and it’s stopping me from moving on. How do I actually stop?