Ok so I had a boyfriend and we had sex a couple of times before I had to leave for university. He was my first and still my only. We were together for almost 3 years, doing long distance for 2 (I’m a junior now). Unfortunately the long distance took a heavy toll and the relationship ended. I don’t wanna go back to him but I also don’t wanna sleep around (just feel like it’s not right for me personally. No judgement to anyone that does). I do want to have another sexual relationship with someone though! Here’s the thing, I didn’t enjoy penetration. Actually it hurt. It wasn’t a searing pain or anything that I felt too uncomfortable with but it just didn’t feel good when we did it in the past. I like oral (receiving) and I love grinding. The friction really gets me going. But penetration is just…. meh. I don’t know if I’m asking for advice or just posting to vent. But how do I get past it? I don’t want to be scared to try it with somebody else. I don’t want to be scared to try it by myself? Anybody ever had the same issue?