Me and my friend are19 yo, we are friends for two years, a lot of things happened to us that made us not be as close as before.
We used to hangout weekly, but nowadays we just see each other when the friend group plan for hangouts.
A week ago I told him that I want to talk to about something about us-didn’t tell him that it’s about our friendship and I want to fix it but it seems he know- but that time wasn’t a good time to open that convo and I told him I want to open the convo when we meet again.
Yesterday we went out to play football with a friend in common, my friend and that friend recently are getting closer, when we were going to the football place, they started talking about the gym and laughing and I knew that they are going to the gym together, even that friend was planning with my friend to go swimming the next day in front of me without including me at all(my friend was silent and didn’t say anything and was just listening when that friend was planning with him)
I’m a quiet person when I feel uncomfortable or when I feel that I should put more effort, so when I be with that friend, I feel drained and I start to be quiet, that’s why I’m unwanted by him
I don’t know what to do, should I still open the convo with my friend or not?