I am 28f husband is 26m. We have been married for 5 years and together for 7. Back in the early days, and even before we were together- I never had issues initiating. It was easy and came naturally to me. Over the last several years it’s just gotten really awkward. I don’t know why? I just feel… like a weirdo.. when I try to be intimate. I’m kind of afraid of being rejected, I dunno. I just feel like idk anything about sex anymore. Maybe it’s gotten too routine?
We probably do it about once a week. My husband works long hours 6 days a week- so I’m sure that is a big reason as to why. He’s usually pretty exhausted but still stays up till midnight regardless so I mean……
We talk about this a lot because I bring it up and he tells me that I need to let him know in advance when I want to. Which I can get behind, for sure. He’s also said I should just be very bold about it instead of dropping hints. Like, bold as in literally undressing him on a whim. He’s good about initiating and typically, he’s the only one who does. Which makes me feel awful because I don’t want our sex life to be ruined just because of my inability to initiate. I just want to feel sexual again like I used to when I was younger.
It still just feels so awkward and I feel like idk how to even be sexy anymore or if he even cares about that.
We don’t have kids yet so that’s not a factor in this.
I just feel like such an awkward weirdo. What can I do to fix this?