I (20F) found out two nights ago that my boyfriend (22M) is addicted to porn. I had a weird feeling about it so I asked, and he swore down on everything that he wasn’t watching porn but when I checked his phone I found it all. We have only been together for 9 months but we have a huge trip booked for the end of this year. I am so upset and I don’t know what to do. We had a huge talk and he told me he was going to stop but of course he’s going to say that. The worst part is that I’m not even angry at him. I just feel so hurt.
We’re long distance so he basically told me that whenever we aren’t together he just does it, but he doesn’t “feel the urge” when I’m with him. I’ve been planning to relocate my whole life to where he lives (which sounds stupid & early but there’s a whole story behind that). I haven’t stopped crying since I found out and I don’t know how I will ever trust him again. He claims he’ll be able to stop but if it’s so easy for him to stop why wouldn’t he have done it at the beginning of our relationship? I’ve told him that he needs to stop or we’re going to break up, and he keeps telling me that he’ll stop and I can even check but he can just find ways to hide what he’s doing.
What should I do?
TL;DR
My boyfriend is addicted to porn and it is making me feel horrible and I can’t trust him anymore. I don’t know what to do.
Edit: Long distance was probably not the right term. We’re closer to mid distance, we see each other weekly we just live 2 hours away from each other.