I have been in a relationship for 9 years married for 7. We have 4 children together. My husband works full-time and I'm a homemaker I recently found out some information out about my husband job where I'm ready to file for divorce. So let me start with a little back story. My husband has a wondering eye that drives me crazy as his wife I find it disrespectful to the point where we have separated and gone to marriage counseling about 1 year into our relationship. He got better and communication got better but in the last 2 years where he started a new job where he started making good money I have seen alot of change in him. He has made me feel like he doesn't want to be home he never leave but gets home from work and is just a complete asshole to all of us. He works and comes home we don't party or drink we are homebodies due to are small children. I started going to therapy due to my anxiety and depression and realized all my insecurity I have are due to my husband behavior. I was almost 300 lbs and hated my body and he didn't make me feel attractive now I'm 164 lbs and I still feel unattractive especially when he told me that when he hugs me he can feel my bones. When we go on date night and sometimes he will look at a woman like he wants to fuck her. Then I blow up and he tells me he is tired of my insecurities. Well last month my oldest daughter told me something super disturbing. She told me while her husband was working with my husband at his current job. There was a day that made him feel super uncomfortable because they went to a city dump that had heavy prostitution. My husband told my son in law to Becarful not to caught a case here but that there was plenty to look at. My daughter told me almost a year later while my husband has been at this job for 2 years. I confronted my husband and told him to be honest because I already new the truth. He didn't deny it but told me he has never cheated on me. I have started to process of filling for divorce and I feel like he is trying to change by starting therapy and agreeing to marriage counseling but my gut is telling me not to trust him but I have absolutely no proof he has cheated on me. What should I do? I hate that I love him but feel stupid for wanting to make it work. He does provide for our family of 6.