I recently stumbled on my husband's corn use. The women in it don't look anything like me and it's caused a huge hit to my self esteem. They're all young with bodies like mine was before kids. He watches it every morning and night. He made comments on my weight while I was pregnant, but recently we had a 3 month separation I gained my confidence and libido back. We've been intimate almost every day and I'd love to keep that going. He's said over and over that me not sleeping with him makes him feel bad.. but then he does things that make me feel terrible and self conscious and not even want to be naked.. He said he wants to work on things and do therapy, but nothings happened yet. He's also been conversing with an old crush and having a seemingly emotional relationship with her. I stumbled on all for this accidentally, but I did snoop after finding it and now I wish I hadn't. Things were not good before the separation. He hasn't made overly rude comments on my body yet, but he has in the past.. so I know where he stands.. I'm not huge, but I'm a size 6/8.. 150lbs. I used to be a size 2, 105lbs so it's a very different body. It seems he is either disgusted by me, or has to envision other women while being with me.. he's also been very vocal about the one larger women he dated in the past being gross and how he had to force himself to be with her.. so he has a history of this he admits to.