I really hope I can get some good advice. I’ve been just so sad this past couple of days it’s been a struggle trying to wrap my head as to why my husband did what he did.
I’ve recently discovered that my husband has been watching porn for a little over a year. He would sneak the phone into the bathroom every morning and watch it and then sometimes when I’m not home, he played it on his laptop or phone. After I confronted him about it, he told me that he wasn’t going to do it anymore. But it only lasted 3 days before he began again. We’ve been on a journey of trying to heal our marriage for ourselves and our baby boy. On Mother’s Day we went to church early in the morning and we were planning on spending the entire day at Sea World. We ended getting into an argument and I told him I needed a some time to clear my head. I stayed home with our little one and he went out. He didn’t come back till 9pm. He had told me that he was at the beach the entire time but when I saw that he turned his location off and removed me from covenant eyes (it’s an internet accountability for porn) I knew something was wrong. He came home told me he went to Miller’s and grabbed two beers. When I asked him to show me proof that he was a Miller because I knew something was wrong after he turned his location off, he changed his story and said he never went to Miller’s. I asked him to show me his transactions for Miller’s, and he kept saying that the bank app was down and that you couldn’t see his transactions. So when I asked for his phone and he gave it to me, I saw in his tap transactions that there was a charge for entrance to a Gentleman’s Club. I couldn’t believe that he went there.. he was honest about getting 3 lap dances and told me he spent $100.. he said it was no private room or vip room but to me $100 is a lot, then again I don’t know much about strip clubs.
We have been trying to work through our marriage, we just recently found out were pregnant again, he was starting to overcome porn, and it hurt more that it was Mother’s Day and he couldn’t get me flowers or a card, but could pay $100 at a strip club. I’m so hurt and I just don’t understand anything anymore. I love him and I’ve forgiven him so many times but how many times does it take. He’s staying with his brother right now, but I don’t know what to do. Any advice would really help ..