**disclaimer i have some disabilities that might result in spelling errors or even using the wrong homophone. I also am very spiritual and am a somatic psychologist who’s also sentient clairvoyant..
so some of my language will be woo woo. I don’t expect you to accept it or need you to. Just how i personally feel and how my body communicates with me.**
Yall, when i tell you im a slow drip (typically). To the point where men have expressed my pace is “too slow”. However! The first date we had he invited me out while he was with his friends and i don’t know how to explain it but i felt INSTANTLY comfortable with him. To the point where, people would pass by us or interact with us and were SHOCKED to find out that was our first date. They kept saying the thought we were a legit couple. He just makes me feel so special and he expresses his admiration for me in like granular and frequent detail. There’s literally no mystery at all about whether or not we are into each other because we are so vocal. I was out that night with him and his wonderful friends from 11:30pm to 5:30am! Y’all… i haven’t been out that late in like… 7 years! Haha
Second date, he took me out for dinner and drinks and we were out from 8:25- 12:30 (on a Wednesday not less). He makes me feel like my full self. We have the same dark humor and we like to roast each other about shit. Throughout this week we’ve been telling each other what we have been telling our communities. Like he said he told his best friend “I’m full on swooning for this woman.” And i told him i told my colorist that he feels like “home” in a sense.
Cut to, last night i take him out for dinner and drinks (yes i wanted to pay for the meal). Then we went to a bar afterward and were talking and since im queer and so is he we were low key visually cruising people around us and it was so hot to see us both pick out people we would approach together (classic brooklyn “we like your vibe” couple 😂). We then go to the bar inside the movie theater and he dared me to compliment a woman we both found attractive. I did. She even told me to touch her hair! Anyways.. as we are watching the movie i feel my chest literally saying “i love you” to him.. clear as fucking day y’all. (The last time that happened 4 years ago with my ex i got engaged to that person after 3 years). So, movie ends and we stand there and i grab his shoulders and look him in the eyes and i said “listen, what I’m about to say is absolutely unhinged but i just don’t see the point in keeping my body’s truth a secret.” I cupped his face in my hands and said, “my chest, while i was in the theater told me to tell you… that i love you. And i want to be clear this is only our third date it’s literally been exactly a week since I’ve met you. You are totally not required to say it back. Truly take your time. In strong enough to exist around you without that being said back to me.” Obviously he was shocked… a min later he said “ya know what, i knew i loved you from the second i met you. Sorry it took me a second i just got nervous.”
Soooo all this to say people, when you know YOU 👏KNOW👏👏.this life is short people. There’s no rule book about how long to wait to say it or who should be the one to say it first.
May you all be loved, and may you all give love. It’s hard out here. I have faith in all of you. I’m also a Buddhist and believe that everyone was once your mother in a past life. Even your pets! So i believe we should try our best to be kind. Cuz everyone has their own battles.
EDIT: Judge me if you so desire. I responded plenty enough to display more of my mind set. Everyone’s going to have an opinion. I posted on Reddit, i expect trolls and alarmist responses. This story is wild! Haha that’s why i shared it. I shall update yall whether it works out or not 🤗