I’ve been on and off with my ex for the past six years. We finally were in the same place at the same time however, previously we had been back-and-forth and he had done me dirty so many times, but of course being an idiot that I am I kept going back to him. A couple months prior we were on the phone and he was talking about how he wanted to get married. I don’t think he was joking either. Of course I said stuff like we’re too young cuz that is the truth.
I ended up seeing him and we ended up getting together. It was a very emotional and quite nice. In years past we never really made it out of the talking stage and we never really started dating bc there was always smth in the way of us. But during that one night he said, he wanted to take me out and he wanted to go do things with me. Stupidly, I believed him. That night he didn’t respond to me that much and the next day he was dry over text message. I told him I wanted to do what we had done again and there was no response. And I knew it was coming. I was angry and I spam called him and that was one thing he told me not to do because I do do that a lot and after I did that, he pretty much blamed it on me and said that he doesn’t wanna be with me because I spammed called him. There were three weeks of back-and-forth, but he never called me back.
Now I’m just really sad. I’m sad because I never got closure. I’m sad because I don’t know what to do. But most importantly, I wanna know how do I move on. How do I find somebody who wants to be with me who wants to get married and who loves me for real? Thanks.
TL;DR: On-and-off ex led me on again, then pulled away and blamed me. No closure, feeling hurt, and trying to figure out how to move on and find something real.