Hi, so this is really a concerning thought that i can't get off my mind lately. I'm 19 and i used to be porn addict for a very short period of life (only watching it, nothing more) i used to read all kinds of smuts and i was into ANY kink you can think of, and it was like a rabbit hole that I kept discovering things. Now the issue is that i love extreme humiliation and degradation, dom/sub, objectification, free use, even… sex slave. I have shared all that w my bf and he's into it too. But as I keep growing (or what I like to call "developing a frontal lobe) , I feel like what have I reduced myself to, and i feel ashamed and less respectful in my own eyes and it bothers me that even then I still like all of it. After I'm done having sex/ or whenever I'm not horny I feel like why am I letting a man do this to me, how pathetic can I get. Idk how to deal w this. I feel like a contradictory person and an imposter when it comes to my views on feminism because i really do support it, but then I look back at what kind of things I allow in bed… My boyfriend told me that it is just a part of me, and that i can't suppress what i like, it'll just leave me dissatisfied